It's been a really depressing week.

I should toughen up and learn not to care about hurtful things people can say about me. I always thought that I should treat my friends nicely because they are my friends. I love them. Trust me when I say this: I know that I don't have that many friends. So I should treat whoever I have nicely.

But when your friend just keeps treating you like a piece of shit, you can't lie about how much it hurts you. This is why I'm scared of the idea of having best friends.

"Eh liat deh, yang itu ganteng masa!"

Setiap cewek yang lagi gak ada kerjaan di kampus atau sekolah pasti pernah bilang kata-kata kayak gitu, gatau kenapa, emang seneng aja kalo ngeliat yang manis-manis. Pas gue bilang gitu ke temen gue, dia langsung bilang gini, "Dih selera lo standar bgt han, masa kaya gitu ganteng". Tapi, setiap orang pasti punya pendapat sendiri tentang definisi cowok yang ganteng itu seperti apa. Ada yang bilang harus tinggi, putih, wangi, sholeh, rapi, pake kemeja tangan digelung, baju dimasukin ke celana bahan, pake kacamata, trus kalau senyum giginya gede, mata sipit dan masih banyak lagi......... Trus gue bilang gini ke temen gue, "Fisik muka ganteng / engganya itu relatif, gue ngeliatnya karena suami-able ajah haha."

Entah kenapa gue bisa membedakan mana yang suami-able dan enggak setiap gue memperhatikan seseorang. Secara tampang sih gue gak terlalu peduli, tapi, kalo boleh sebut, gue suka ngeliat laki-laki yang lebih tinggi dan punya aura ke bapak-bapak-an ((iya gue tau selera gue aneh, tapi kim woobin ganteng parahh. kyaa kyaa xD)). Gue gak mau bilang dia harus inih, dia harus kaya itu. Toh, kita kan gatau jodoh kita nanti yang mana. Yang penting se-Iman dan takut sama yang menciptakan-Nya. Nah! kalo udah takut sama Tuhan-Nya, InsyaAllah embel-embel ke belakangnya juga akan baik. Yang taat sama orangtuanya lah, yang menghargai perempuannya lah, yang gak php lah......... yagitu deh.

Tuhkan jadi panjang, Yah yaudah lah yaaa~
Semoga gue dipertemukan dengan seseorang yang selera humornya sama seperti gue. Yang bisa nari-nari lagu india kalo lagi bosen, yang bisa ngabisin makanan kalo gue udah kenyang, dan semoga yang baca dapet jodoh biar gak gabut baca blog orang mulu hahaha XD



Hani.

BEAUTY ATRRACTS THE EYE
BUT PERSONALITY CAPTURES THE HEART.

I always ask my father like a thousand time, "Ayah aku cantik ga?". Then, he always said the same thing everytime i asked him, "yang penting itu cantik hatinya" then, he added, "anak ayah gak ada yang jelek". I mean, yeah, i know it very well, very very very well. But... as a woman, we want to be acknowledged to be pretty by saying "iya. kamu cantik kok", especially our own family member. Many things that happend to me back then. Being bullied because of my appearance ((i have a squint eyes when i was child)). So i was kind of underestimate myself until now . I envy with the other girls that have a beautiful face and can easily makes friend back then. I mean, every girl is born to be beautiful. They shouldn't be bullied (walaupun cuma dikatain). They don't deserve to be bullied despite their looks. But only some people who know and understand it. Being pretty is really important for girl. Girls dress up and look good because they want to. They want to look good for themself and they want to get acknowledged in the right and respected way. I like it when i am called beautiful, because my efforts seem to be paid off.

But, maybe now, i understand what my father said to me. You are ugly if you have an ugly heart. No matter how beautiful your exterior is, you can't be truly beautiful until you learn to be nice. People will still look down on you if you have a pretty face with bad personality. And vise versa. I was taught never to take life for granted, to love with everything i had, to never give up, to believe in my God (Allah SWT), but most of all, to fight for my self and love everyone around me (even a bad ppl).

Hani.